Well, these are all shit now, aren’t they?
Remember when these songs gave you hope? Made you feel inspired, not disappointed.
I have to say, it has taken me several years to be able to listen to any music that isn’t considered “meditative”. Music that I cared about in the past, was much too painful to listen to. I’m just now starting to listen to my favorites again. But not all. Some hit me like a wreaking ball (no pun intended). But, seriously. Many albums are off limits to me right now. I don’t feel like “feeling my emotions” like people tell me I should. Though, my therapist doesn’t pressure me with this kind of talk, thank God! As a matter of fact, he supplies me with many drugs that completely eliminate the possibility.
Do some songs bring a tear to my eye? Absolutely! But, I’m not losing my shit and balling my eyes out, reaching for a suicidal weapon. And that’s where you want to be emotionally. Am I right?
In the words of the great Tom Petty,
“You belong among the wildflowers.
You belong on a boat out at sea.
You belong on the arm of a lover.
You belong somewhere you feel free.”
We belong here, but it doesn’t mean we are here. Or ever will be again.
Ok, maybe I can still bust a move to a love song with a good beat. I’m only human.
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