“Your absence has gone through me like thread through a needle. Everything I do is stitched with its color.” -W.S. Merwin
When you loose your spouse, who was your best friend, the loss is tremendous. It effects all aspects of your reality. Nearly every thought that runs through your mind is effected by your loss.
You can no longer think in the same way, because your life has been completely changed. This is the unknown struggle that we all face. People who have not experienced it, will not comprehend what difficulties we have every moment of every day. This, in itself can be frustrating, even enraging, at times.
Go ahead and be angry. You have every right. Other peoples ignorance is their own bliss. And we no longer have that luxury.
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