“Grief is like a bomber circling round and dropping it’s bombs each time the circle brings it overhead.”
– C.S Lewis
“A Grief Observed”, by C.S. Lewis, was a helpful read for me in widowhood. His poetry of grief is recognizable to us. The link below will direct you to his website, and this book.
http://www.cslewis.com/tag/grief/
Reading books and writings about grief and widowhood really made a difference in dealing with my great loss. Without it, I would feel even more alone, and perhaps would no longer be walking this earth. As you may also feel, that living after losing your spouse, seems pointless.
Give yourself the gift of knowing that others have been where you are, in a way, and their experience can prepare you for what you may feel in the future.
Remember, early grief can feel like your in the middle of an air raid. Shelter yourself the best you can by educating yourself on what to expect in this transition of life.
Widows Life 